just for the record - things to note

1. i think i might actually like running. not alone or for speed. but it makes me feel like i am in control of something and have actually accomplished something in the day...even if it is just a 30 minute jog when your knee is killing you.
   
2. i like margaritas without salt or sugar on the rim. call me what you will but i dont like either and i like my margaritas naked.
   
3. saturday i spent the day mostly detached from technology. i suggest at least one day a month doing such. i hope to have one day without all tech communication methods by the end of the month.
   
4. i made a list this weekend of elements of myself that i am working on embracing, understanding and growing. some were simple, like my attraction to certain colors while others were deeper like how i view people around me.
   
5. i am tired of looking for a new housemate. more than that im tired of showing people my house. it is an awkward process of opening your life to people and saying "here is my hideaway, please come in to see if you will be part of it."
   
6. i miss my relationship with certain family members.
   
7. i live in a community where 97% of people have grown up together and know each other from years of interaction. and im realizing that i dont think that community exists anywhere for me. and more importantly i might not want to be a part of it, if it did.
   
8. i hate the noise my ice cream truck makes. sirens should be reserved for emergencies. its siren reminds me of old bomb sirens.
   
9. i will be returning to Portland for a mini-vacation in 8 days. i am not ready. i am worried that i will come back more stressed and sleepless than i am now.
   
10. i am looking forward to going home in more ways than i know how to express.
    
11. i believe i will start updating my blog via my iphone... i don't know why i havent before, but i think i will.
    
12. im more at peace now with myself than i have ever been. not content mind you, but at peace.
    
13. i often feel that i am better at expressing my love through writing than any other form.
    
14. i have come to grips with being cheesy. if you dont like it - tough luck... its just me.
    
15. there is always more to say.... but never enough time to say it.