somedays

the rundown

passed g and felt my heart fall into the acid of my stomach. some wounds take more time to heal than we expect. it had been a year since i had last seen him, even though we live in the same city. drunk and frustrated asked j what we were and haven't seen him since. talked a few times, but realizing that less than a month after our vacation... the happiness might just be memories and that i may have lost a good friend. two people can grow fairly close in a year, especially when they share a bed and the experiences of life.
helped one of my best friends move out of my house back to the west coast, knowing i couldn't help her fix her depression and anxiety. simply hoping for the best in her return and peace of mind. i feel like i simply failed her.
heard news that e's son was born. reminded that only six months ago i closed a chapter on my life by having him move away. i don't want to be in the situation he is in now, but at one point i wanted a situation with him.
my brother called to tell me he leaves in a week for boot camp. since the marines fell through, he has decided to move on to the army. funny, the army just signed him up and will ship him out within a week. i only have one sibling, and i am terrified to lose him.

but at least i have power at the house after the storm.