as we sat there in my car outside your place, i promised myself i would etch the moments into my memory, sketch the details into my dreams and archive the thoughts in my brain.

that night your hand which had over the last six months slid beneath my thighs as i drove, had now progressed its way between my legs to hold my thigh and back of my knee in the palm of your hand.

you held my hands in yours, playing with my fingernails, spending extra time on my pinky nails, like you always do. our fingers dance between each others, and i slowly pull one hand away to caress the back of your neck. my fingers start at your hairline and you let your head fall backwards so my hand moves up your head.

we keep talking even though the sky is becoming lighter and the birds have begun to sing. i am at the point that i turn off my car engine because i know we won't be wrapping up our conversation soon.

we keep talking, saying that we are parting ways, but the reality is you dont leave the car and i have taken off my seatbelt so that i can turn to face you. our conversations rang from the funny to serious but never does the intensity change.

i point out that you act like you have control and know whats going on, it is after all your aries nature. i politely remind you that mine is to continually question and search for understanding.

your lips find their ways to my ear, and simply rest there as we both fall silent. as you press them slowly i am sure you can feel my grin as my hand tighten on your knee. i close my eyes and try to keep my moans inside. as you pull away after what seems like hours i take a deep breath in and slowly open my eyes.

i try to find ways to tell you how important you are, and you try to find ways to take care of me. most of the ways, i tell you that you don't need to do that, and that i do what i do because i care. you remind me that you don't do any of this because you feel like you need to, but because you want to.

you kiss my cheek. i kiss yours. you kiss my other cheek. i wonder if you can see my smile and the blush under my skin. you lean in to kiss my lips. we kiss quickly and linger to kiss again. i wonder if you can hear my insides screaming to tell you not to go and that i care more than i verbalize.

you finally say goodbye and go to climb out the car. promising that you are going to guide me through the construction on my drive home. stopping by my window to talk again.

two blocks away you call... we talk the whole way home until i crawl into bed and put my head on my pillow. meanwhile you have been preparing for bed and wrapping up your day.

we say awkward goodbyes.... sweet dreams...later...goodnight... later... until next time... sweet dreams...